As I left tutoring that afternoon, a 7 year old with a bouncy backpack took off full speed across the parking lot toward my car. She was screaming my name. Apparently there was a burning something in her soul that just couldn't wait. This was urgent.
Then it came......."Miss Jenny, do you have a boyfriend?"
Did I mention she is 7? Awkward.
A few months ago the kids told me during an afternoon visit that they had gotten together, discussed it and came to a unanimous conclusion: They are not sure why I am single.
Truth is, I have a hard time explaining my status to myself half the time. I mean, I didn't sign up for this. However, I realize my own wrestling is rooted in the fact that that I don't fully trust the Sovereignty of God. So often, in my emotional audacity, I tell God he pretty much doesn't know what he is doing, his plan is simply all wrong and his timing is off.
However, he is big enough to not only make the stars and change our circumstances but is All Knowing enough to leave us in our circumstances when it is for our best. Ultimately it boils down to if we really trust God.
"But who are you, O man, to answer back to God? Will what is molded say to its molder, "Why have you made me like this?"
Romans 9:20
I will be held accountable for how I use this season. Not only for how I used the time, but for my attitude. Better to embrace it, awkward questions and all, and treasure the opportunity to uniquely extend myself to know God and love on my quirky Kindergarten neighbor who giggles about the letter "N".
the giggling Kindergartener I tutor
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